27/08/09 It's near the end not the beginning

Things that haven't even started seems like it's gonna end soon..
Contradicting? Recent events really made me think a lot and the middle of my chest is really in pain now. Hope that when 4th sep comes, i go for my check-up, nothing major about it. Even breathing in, i feel the pain. Can't seem to take deep breaths.. I spoilt my body.. It's crumbling down on me now. Sigh...

25/08/09 Lifeless being

Went to work in the morning with a little hope.
Did a bit of studying there and had lunch.
After that went for class in the noon and left early.
Went home have dinner and watched tv.
Showered and had a plan.
Plan gone and tried to study.
Think too much and can't absorb.
Can't absorb and time to sleep.
Can't sleep well and next day starts.

No life is what it means...

25/08/09 Mixed feelings

Another day passed with my mind thinking all kinds of things. No wonder my hair turns white so easily... One day 24 hours, i think i used it all up to just think. Even in my sleep! >.>
Weird feelings, mixed feelings, dunno how to explain it either.. Heart can be felt not the same as it used to be. Carrying heavier things than before..

I don't like it.. at all...

22/08/09 3rd day of continous sporting

20th august badminton,
21st august swimming,
22nd august soccer...

3 days, 3 sports... now body is aching all over, from the shoulder down all the way to my hamstring.
but that feeling of non stop action feels good =p just that for some unknown reason, the heart is aching as well. It's not due to the sports but i too, am not sure why.

Even though thinking makes me tired and weary, can't help stop thinking. So many things happening and so many things to carry.

我是真的真的累了~ 可是累了还是停不下来~
想了心好累，
听了心好痛，
看了心好酸，
心的~
累，酸，痛，
又有谁能知？

07/08/09 A nice number

Missed the timing to make it 12:34:56 07/08/09..

Somehow feels tiny in this huge world..
Feels i'm no longer who i am..
who am i then?