31/08/2010 A day that would soon come

Weeks... Days... Since i did some typing here.. well i guess.. just fussing around and hope that something does turn out better.. I may be a listener i hope, but sometimes... even a listener needs someone who listens..

When in need of some words to actually bring the mood up, something opposite or rather extreme opposite was saw,heard or whatever.. When u're down, and hit by something that's rather unexpected.. It'll make you down and out...

There's a difference between how much a person can take and how much a person can seem to take.. I for example is touching the latter... Just hope and pray that that limit would not come soon for me to need to do something about it...

Peace...

21/06/10 Another week comes

Yesterday, along with a few buddies, lpk and sy to yc's solemnization at somewhere near habourfront. Well, it's only the 2nd time that i attended one. To see couples getting together and taking a vow is a nice feeling though. My best wishes to Yvonne and Yuchen again =p

Weather is hot, but who cares lol.. Almost planned to throw yc into the pool though but well, we were the nice guys so didn't do that in the end. ^_^

A new year has begin quite sometime ago and it's already like reaching half of it. Things have certainly changed from the previous point of views. I should for a fact, try to make an effort to change i guess.

Saw facebook and another sec sch friend of mine is getting engaged. Best wishes to her too =p

Time seems really passing so fast day by day, night by night. But when it comes to office hours, time seems to slow down.
I may have said this a thousand times but saying it again doesn't really kills me. I wanna make a change and hope that change comes soon. Gonna try putting some effort into it.

Ja na~

18/06/10 Working life and 1st weekend

Frankly speaking, i never missed friday as much as today. Now that working life has started for me, i can't take leaves or go on leaves like before. Gotta save the leaves for revision for upcoming sem's exam lol. That's one thing i never bother about b4 >_<

Well now that it's finally friday, praying for good weather tml morning so that i can really enjoy my game of soccer and then sunday will be attending friend's engagement. So kinda like a good weekend waiting for me lol.. maybe just buffing myself though =p

Working life is tough i say, but the fun comes about learning new things and meeting new people. One of my colleague is actually my friend's younger sister, and as she has been there longer than me, she's kinda like half my mentor lol..

The staffs are all friendly but busy, really busy.. Well i supposed that's what u are expected to see in a accounting firm or place. Work work work, break, work work work, go home! ^_^
I always seem to have unfinished questions to ask people regarding my work being afraid to go wrong here and there. My friend's sis, Jasmine has been teaching me patiently.. So i hope i don't ask too much till she explodes one day lol.. Miss Tong is the most senior staff and i keep asking her for work to do lol.. Am i doing too fast? Maybe i should start slowing down lol...

Overall, it has been a good 5 working days and experience for me.. Hope that i can learn more soon =p
Shall end here to get my friday night tv going!

Ja na~

05/06/10 A wasted weekend...

As what the title says, a weekend ready to be wasted just like that.
After much time passed and finally gotten my exam results..
Not to say happy but just glad i'm able to clear all at the least..

Is this just reality or random thoughts running inside the head?
Things comes, things goes, it happens, it passes..
Maybe i should really let go of the present and past and start thinking for the future..
Night after night, thinking and thinking as i can't fall asleep and tossing here and there on the bed..
As much as just clinging onto it is draining my energy away day by day.

Hopefully i can start afresh the next week it begins.

Ja na...

Alones - Aqua Timez

11/05/10 Time passes slow..

Soon, it will be one week after which i took the exams. Not knowing when the results will be released, time seems to be moving so slow.. Specially when i needed to know if i have passed my last module which needed attendance from morning lectures before i could actually put my heart at ease to look for a job.

Now that my dad has officially retired, everything seems so tight at home. Although i can actually now spend more time with my family, it all comes down to being the one late into the night. Everyone seems to be busy with their lives while i'm here wasting mine away..

Letting go of something is hard, specially when that thing has occupied some place inside of u. Organizing a gathering a tough, not to mention just a small group gathering.
All seems so tough now that everyone is so busy...

Later..

爱不单行

27/04/10 Days before Exams..

Distance grows~~
Path widens~~

Just 2 days to go before my first paper, I totally have no mood to study.. Why.. Things are coming at me at a speed i can no longer handle, issues coming one after another..

As time passes, responsibilities get heavier and burdens pile on top of one another before the first one could be handled.. 2 weeks to go and exams will be over, and new things will enter my list of burdens...

Had a meeting with my heart doc today, never seen the doc b4 as the one who usually attend to me was overseas.. Answered a few questions and before i could even notice, i was ald out of the room.. All the info i got was, seeing the patient's statement to tally with the scanning reports, to see when is the most suitable time for an operation..

Does this mean an operation will be necessary? Sigh...

So much to say, so little words i can type to describe those things i wanna say.. Things have changed, and people are no longer the same.. I guess..

Laterz..

08/04/10 Sick...

Well, things was going pretty well after i stopped working on 19th march till 2 days ago. My dad complained about stomach-ache and i brought him to a clinic for injection and some medicine. Upon reaching home and eating the med, he vomitted..

Today, i brought him to the same doc again and this time the doc administered med and injection for the stomach-ache. My dad who was a healthy 82kg man, now weights 74kg.. It breaks my heart to actually see how my dad have grown thinner becos of the sickness.. After reaching home, i told my dad to sleep for a while and would wake him up for lunch later. Soon after, it was lunch time.

I woke him up for lunch and he almost fainted while walking towards the kitchen so i helped him sit down. His eyes suddenly widen and stared blankly into the air. It kinda freak me out as i have never seen my dad like this my whole life.. All of a sudden, he appeared to faint while sitting on the chair but he actually fell asleep on the chair instead.

Me and my aunt panicked and i can tell u this.. That wasn't a veri nice feeling at all.. Every now and then, i would check out my dad.. He had always liked to eat but now, he has low blood pressure.. I really dunno what went wrong and i prayed for everything to turn out well soon or eventually.. I tried to do something everytime but i'm worried.. Next up, exams starting on 29th april and i have little time left. Really hope everything will go well...

Laterz...

19/03/10 End of a 1yr 5 mths temp job

Day started with me arriving office the earliest as usual to do what i always do, help out at customer service. Topping up of forms, fixing the crappy copier which the paper kept getting stuck .___. and then changing the water bottle of the water dispenser.

After that kena slacked a while on the chair b4 trying to log into the company system to do my work. Well the system was down and i can't do my work so i helped to listen to phone calls and do some more slacking in front of the com lol.

Reaching noon, my friend alvin smsed me saying he pass his driving test le so when's my turn.. That... is a very good question coz even i myself dunno the answer lol... Went to amoy to pack food for my colleagues with joanne and half day was gone just like that.

Soon after lunch, back to my seat to try logging in again but somehow, the system was still down and had to call the relevant department to help out. It kinda took them another 3-4 hours to get it done, so by that time it was already 5pm lol... Just b4 the time hit 6pm, i asked lora to take pic of me with albree and then albree to take pic of me with lora.

Just as amos was around the around, asked him to take pic of me with the 2 little girls before having one shot of myself taken with amos. When i was gonna pack my bag to leave for the day, saw a present by albree, lora, alvin and joanne. It was a red colour converse polo T. So after going down the lift one last time with the girls, each of us went seperate ways. Raining rain rain rain.. Finally it rained.. on my last day lol...

While on the train, there was an incident whereby the train had already started to move but then suddenly brake causing a few person to actually stumble and fall. I myself nearly fell if i had not stood properly in the first place. The first sudden brake i experience in my years of taking the mrt lol... Luckily, no one was badly hurt or whatsoever..

By the way, still am kinda jealous that another perm staff got her farewell dinner and ktv singing session. For me as a temp, the people upstairs on 13th floor treated me like transparent and only 2-3 person knew of my existence.. Even when walking past my manager, i called out softly to her but.. she see through me! as in i wasn't even there at all.. Sigh... Need to react like this? I ponder... What do they expect me to do? Be a temp and stay there my whole life? Then what for did i apply to study accounting for? I think people on 13th know i was leaving but well, i left silently then i guess. It's good enough for me that my colleagues on the 12th appreciates what i have done for them. Hopefully one day, i will return to pay them a visit.

So gonna end here now i guess. Will update soon again if the urge comes along lol..

Laterz..

18/02/10 A day for memories

Since the new year a few days ago, my house has been awfully quiet. It doesn't have the life that it once had whereby all would come to gather and have fun and eat as we speak.. Things around us is constantly making changes while some things never change.

My dad, saw that i came home from work with disappointment written all over my face, asked if i had my dinner. As i didn't want him to fry eggs for me, i lied about having dinner. He told me his company treated all of their staffs a good and big meal today and he's still very full till then.

About 9pm, he gave me 30 bucks and asked me to order pizza. Somehow, he was able to know i skipped my dinner.

Like i said, somethings changes while some don't. Some thinks for themselves only while others think for them. Tiredness endows and energy drained... Why? is the very question i ask myself every night. Why have things turned this way? Why have things turned that way? Answers to these questions can never be found in my dictionary i guess.

Maybe, just maybe someday.. someone will have the answers to my question..

Laterz..
J

26/01/2010 The day I turned 26

On the 26th, i became 26 years old.
After living all those years,
things have come and gone.
The more u expect, the harder u fall.
Things usually don't turn out the way you wished.

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